'He will have no fear of bad news. His heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord.'
Psalm 112:7
In the three years since I was given this verse as a stressed out soon to be mom, it has become one of the foundations of the life I now lead. It is my constant prayer for Wyatt. It is an ongoing reminder of good priorities. It is the Word of God living and active.
Why a new blog post on our lessons of trust after a long silence? There are parts of our story in the past 18 months that are not a secret, and yet I find there are those in our lives we haven't been able to share with lately. This isn't the type of news you share in a quick Facebook status or run in with old friends at the grocery store. It is a part of our family and each of us individual.
We currently find ourselves in the midst of "secondary infertility." Our hope was for 2 kids, 2 years apart. I was pregnant in the "perfect timing," but lost the baby at only 6 weeks. Six months later, we again lost a little one early in the first trimester. Nine months from that loss, we are still awaiting another baby to love. The emotions and questions are a roller coaster at times. Another miscarriage could indicate a medical issue although currently none have been found. Adoption is a common story around us, but as of now neither of us are hearing that from God for our family right now.
Our struggle is in no way unique. At times, I have even felt guilty that it has not been as hard or long as others we love. Nevertheless, it has brought us to new understanding of no fear. God is a rock in the midst of bad news. He is faithful in times of no news. He brings peace when even good news can be full of uncertainties.
For now, we wait. We pray for steadfast hearts. We listen to Wyatt's stories of how he will take care of the two babies he is asking God for. :)
